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Greetings, Bearers!

Here’s the next part.  Enjoy!

J. Dean

It was familiar, yet foreign.

After passing what seemed to be an infinite stretch of the monotonous layout of shimmering pillars, they entered a chamber that was circular in design, bathed in shifting colors that emanated from between the seams of a metallic cylinder at the center of the room.  Surrounding the cylinder—which had been pieced together by connecting various metals of diverse shapes, colors, and sizes—was a console; not circular like the control station of the TARDIS, but quadrilateral in design, and hardly as elegant, as the multitude of controls had a cobbled, disorganized appearance.  The look of the walls was hardly any better, cluttered with pipes and conduits both insulated and exposed that ran haphazard courses, smothering everything save for the areas near three doors set apart from each other at equidistant intervals.

“What is this?” the Monitor asked.  “Is this a TARDIS?”

“Of sorts,” the Keeper replied as she walked to the far wall, adjusting what appeared to be a horizontal row of valve wheels.  “Far more primitive and limited in its design, of course.  Ideally, it would have required ten people in here to operate it with maximum efficiency, far less than what you use for yours, I’m sure.”

“But if you lived at the time of the Vortex’s construction—”

“I wouldn’t have known what a TARDIS was?” Merriana replied, finishing the Monitor’s thought.  “Quite right, Time Lord.”

“The Vortex did it,” the Librarian remarked, studying the table.  “She foresaw the TARDIS, learned its design, and built it from memory.”

“I cannot claim all of the credit, of course,” The Keeper added.  “And I must apologize for the slipshod appearance of the control room, as it was put together with spare parts and rudimentary knowledge.  Compared to yours, mine may as well have been fashioned with sticks and stones.  But Pelegus and the few others who believed me heard me out when I described it to them, drew up a basic plan for the device, and set up the top floor of this research building in which we are now housed to build it.”

“Hardly your fault,” the Librarian answered.  “You were working with little more than an image burned into your head concerning technology that had not yet existed.”

The Keeper turned toward him. “Not to mention working on it in secret,” she said.  “By this time, I was eyed suspiciously on a regular basis.  Far too many of my colleagues and the authorities of my time no longer regarded me as simply a bit off-center.  By then, there were several who were pushing for me to be relocated, to be kept as far away from the Time Vortex as possible.  I had to lay low, to go about my business as inconspicuously as possible.  It required me to pilfer items from our labs in order to use them for construction.  Many longs months passed, with me and my faithful handful of friends obtaining the necessary pieces, sacrificing many hours of sleep and recreation in order to fashion what you see here now.”

“A pity you never learned whether or not it worked,” The Paladin commented, her eyes trying to follow the crisscrossing jumble of conduits.  “You built it in order to go back in time and prevent the construction of the Vortex, yes?”

“I did do that.  But I did learn that it worked, and my first expedition with it took me somewhere else with it.”

The Keeper ran her hand across the side of the control console as she continued, “In my time staring at the Vortex, I saw a great many things, far more than even you Time Lords and Ladies have ever seen in your many incarnations.  The schematics and building of this… ‘pre-TARDIS,’ if you will… was one of the most significant visions I had.  But I had a vision of something else too, something that I needed to investigate, and that was to be my test run of this vehicle.  After that, if it worked, I would then set course for the recent past of my own life and dissuade myself from the Vortex.”

“What about risking a time paradox?” The Paladin asked.

“Wasn’t thinking about that at the time.  All of the nuances and intricacies you associate with time travel in your day weren’t at the forefront of my mind.  All I really wanted to do at the time was undo what I had done.  But first, I had to test the vessel, in order to ensure that it worked.  And one of my… visions, for lack of a better word… revealed to me the place I was to first go.”

Merriana approached a large lever and gave it a strained push.  From somewhere above came a deep-throated mechanical rumble, as if a monstrous, ill-tempered beast composed of metal had been awakened from its slumber.  “A good thing I tested it when I did,” she added.  “Otherwise, I would never have acquired it.”

“It?  What is this ‘it’ that you acquired?” The Librarian asked.

The Keeper’s eyes lifted to the upright metal cylinder confined in the console station.  Beams of ghostly light seeping through the seams settled upon her, giving her an almost angelic appearance as she smiled.  “Something beautiful,” she whispered, then added as she looked at the others, “perhaps I shall introduce you to it shortly, yes?”

The Monitor looked at the Librarian and the Paladin with a quizzical expression.  The other two could only respond with uncertain shrugs.

“First, however,” the Keeper continued, “allow me to demonstrate what strange phenomenon occurred to me when I attempted to dismantle the Vortex.”

She hurried to the opposite side of the station, her hands dancing and skipping over a multitude of asymmetrical arrays of buttons, dials, and switches.  The rumbling began to increase in volume and intensity.  “I assume the two of you know the story as to my exact circumstances which led me here?” she asked the Librarian and the Paladin.

They both nodded vigorously in response, while the Paladin leaned close to the Monitor’s ear, as the rumble of the Keeper’s machine made it difficult to hear room’s-length discussion at a normal volume level.  “She was preparing to go back to the date of the Vortex’s inception,” she began to explain, “to prevent its construction.  A TARDIS from a later date landed near the Vortex, just as the Keeper arrived.  Merriana attempted to flee, but the Time Lords from that TARDIS—and to this day, we don’t know who they were, only that they came from a later era in history—those Time Lords placed a Time Lock on this building as she initiated an escape.  Somehow, it sent her here, to the Void.”

“I believe it had something to do with me operating my ‘pre-TARDIS’ so close to the Vortex opening,” the Keeper announced in an almost shouting voicel.  “I escaped the Time Lords, but not before they locked me inside my own building.  You could say that I fled the prison and took my cellblock with me.”

She returned to the side nearest the other three.  “You may want to hold on to something,” she cried.  “This is going to be a bit rough!”


The Monitor thought he was going to die.

As soon as the Keeper had slapped a palm-sized red button, the entire building lurched.  A scream that blended cutting metal and raucous alarms boomed through the chamber, piercing his head with sound waves as sharp as blades that aggravated his almost-tolerable headache.  Steam hissed from various conduits on the walls, filling the room with a thick wall of fog, obscuring his view of the Keeper and her control station.

Then… spinning!  Spinning wildly, like a top in its final rotations ready to topple over.  He fell to the floor, hands pressed into the smooth surface in a vain attempt to keep from moving.  Glancing over, he saw that his companions were suffering the same fate; the Paladin had crashed into one of the far walls and was gripping her forearm, the rifle little more than two meters away from her.  The Librarian was flat on his back, eyes shut, as if he were in a state of either extreme pain or extreme terror… or perhaps a bit of both.

And then it stopped.  The floor became upright.  The artificial scream died down to its previous state of rhythmic thrumming.  The dense cloud of smoke, as suddenly as it had appeared, dissipated into nothingness.

“I must apologize for that,” the Keeper confessed, coming over to assist the Librarian and the Paladin to their feet.  The Monitor did not wait for her help; he climbed to a wobbling, unsteady standing position.  His hand reached for the nearest wall.

“I wouldn’t do that, Monitor,” the Keeper advised.  “The conduits are rather hot to the touch for several moments after use.”

The Gallifreyan man glanced at the brazen crisscross of pipes, then retracted his hand.  “What did you do?”

“Why, I used my device!” the Keeper answered.

“But how?” The Paladin asked, retrieving her rifle.  “We’re in a Time Lock!”

“Yes, we are.  And… no, we are not.  At least, not in one sense.  Follow me.”

She started for one of the other doors, the one to the left of the door they had used to enter the control room.  The panel slid away, revealing a vast expanse of stars and galaxies in an infinite display before them.

“We’re no longer in the Void!” The Librarian cried.

“Oh no, Librarian; we are.  Were you to retrace your steps to your TARDIS and leave through the Time Lock, you’d find yourself back in the black sea you swam through in order to find me.  But at the same time, we are back in the universe—that is, in our universe proper, as we know it.”

She backed away from the door, closing it.  “You see, something else happened when those Time Lords placed me in the time lock,” she explained.  “Somehow, in a way I do not understand no matter how many times I have undertaken studies to try, I can still operate my vessel.  I can go to other places, just like you in your TARDIS.  I can slip through different epochs in history, different dimensions, different universes—all of those things that you can do, I can do as well.  But, at the same time, I can go everywhere, and yet can go nowhere.”

She returned to the console, examining a monitor that displayed something not unlike a galactic map.  “You see,” she continued, “I can go where and when I please, be it a city, a planet, a solar system, a galaxy—wherever I desire.  I can even walk through that door and leave my vessel, just like you.  But beyond that, I can do nothing.”

“Nothing?” the Monitor asked.  “How is that?”

“Because I do not exist out there,” the Keeper replied.  “I am invisible in every sense of the word, no matter where I go.  I cannot be seen, cannot be heard, cannot be interacted with.  I cannot manipulate anything in the environment around me; if I saw something that I wanted to eat, for instance, I would be unable to pick it up and bite it.  Nor could I pick up and throw a rock in order to get the attention of somebody else.”

“Like a ghost?” The Paladin asked.

“For lack of a better way to put it, yes.  I am, in one sense, the ultimate spectator to reality.  I can see and hear anything I want, but I do it all in eternal anonymity, without anybody or anything ever being aware of my existence.  My prototype TARDIS can take me anywhere, allow me to experience the past, the present, and the future, in this and any other reality.  And I’ve visited many a realm in many a civilization.  But I cannot participate in any of it.  I can only watch and learn.”

“What a horrid and lonely existence!” the Librarian exclaimed.  “I would think that such a state would make you go mad!”

“Oh believe me, Librarian, I’ve kissed insanity more than once during this exile,” the Keeper said.  “In fact, were it not for my first discovery prior to being encased in the Time Lock, I very well might have gone mad.  But the truth is, I’m not alone in this place.”

“I suppose not,” the Monitor reasoned. “You may not be heard or seen by the places you’ve been, but in a sense you really aren’t truly alone, are you?”

“A valid point, Monitor, but not what I was referring to.  Even before your arrival, and even after your departure, I will not be alone.”

“You mean to say that somebody else is here with you?” the Paladin inquired.

The Keeper looked at the young woman, gave her a sly smile.  “That is certainly one way to think of it,” she answered.  “I believe it’s time for you to look behind my third door and see what I’m referring to.”

The dark-haired female drifted to the panel, then turned to the trio of travelers.  “Shall we continue our tour?” she asked.

Greetings, Bearers!

Here’s the next part.  And hopefully I’ll have another release coming up in the next month for you to enjoy!

See you in the Vein!

J. Dean


The trio of newcomers walked among the pillars, following the form of the young woman who led them on. The Librarian watched with puzzled curiosity at the place where the Keeper’s dark robe met the shimmering blue texture of the floor, gliding across without interruption, as if the young woman were indeed a specter, floating across the vast chamber. The Paladin continued to look left and right, her soldierly instincts refusing to permit her more than a moment of relaxation or diversion in an alien environment. She did not relax the grip on her rifle.
“So you are saying,” the Monitor began, “that it was your science that gave birth to the Vortex?”
“I am saying precisely that, Monitor,” the Keeper replied. “Oh, to be sure I was not the first to theoretically conceive it, but it was I who put forth the specifics regarding its development. It was with my formulae and designs that it came into being, that we constructed the portal that gives access to the Vortex, the very same one used by later generations of your Time Lords and Ladies when they cause the children of Gallifrey to stare into its heart.”
The Monitor split off from the others for a moment, evading a pillar in his path “But… but why erase your record if you hold such a significant place in our history?” he asked.
“Because she demanded it be destroyed,” the Librarian answered.
“It’s true,” Merriana agreed. “I wanted to undo what I had done. And I demanded as such to the leaders of our day in a public hearing.” She looked back at the Monitor. “That thing you and nearly all other Gallifreyans worship as the pinnacle of progress for our people had become a monster which had to be eliminated for the good of our beloved planet, as well as for a great many other species that span this and other universes.”
The Paladin leaned in toward the monitor. “She had looked into the Vortex herself just after its completion,” she explained. “And she saw everything.”
“Everything? You mean you went mad, yes?”
“No,” the Keeper replied, raising a hand. “The Paladin is right; I saw everything in an instant. I saw the past, the future, the present. I saw societies rise and fall, individuals as they were born, lived, and died. I saw wars fought. Battles won. Battles lost. Enslavement. Liberation. I saw the creation and the desolation of planets, solar systems, entire galaxies. I saw it all from the panoramic view of a god, and also from the limited, personal views of a billion different aliens on a billion different worlds. To put it bluntly, I saw time and space as they were, before any being ever set foot in the Vortex.
“And then I saw it all collapse into chaos. I saw the lives of many who would never exist because of temporal interference. I saw civilizations that should have come to a close prolonged instead through the changing of events, changed with the best of intentions but resulting in good societies becoming corrupted and evil permitted to fester in a manner that would not have happened had those civilizations been left as they were to change or end. I saw individuals look upon death as an opponent to be cheated, and as such went to great lengths to avoid it, even at the expense of mistreating others through cavalier means and altering their futures in a damning, irreparable way. I saw unintended paradoxes take place. I saw time travelers flaunt their abilities as if they were deities to be worshiped—or devils to be feared.”
Her head dropped as she continued to talk in a sullen tone. “I don’t know how long I had gazed into it,” she continued. “Couldn’t have been more than a few moments, as I had managed to be alone with the Vortex for a brief time. An hour at most. But when I came to, a number of my colleagues were standing over me. They said I had been standing there, oblivious to anything around me as if I had been in a trance, speaking to the Vortex. They said I spoke about things unfamiliar, things alien. Phrases mentioning technologies and sciences unfamiliar to them, along with references that made little sense. A few contested that I even talked in what sounded like different languages at certain times. Then, I collapsed.”
The Monitor looked at his two traveling companions. “Forgive my perceived skepticism, Keeper, but what you described very well could be considered madness,” he answered. “The Vortex has induced madness upon many a Gallifreyan, and the symptoms have been quite diverse in their manifestations.”
“Your skepticism if forgiven, Monitor,” the Keeper replied. “Were I in your position, I would look upon myself with the same sort of supposition. But madness occludes the mind, makes it foggy, unclear, difficult to think clearly. I, on the other hand, was then, and now, as lucid in my thoughts as ever I had been in my entire life.”
“And she said as much,” the Librarian added. “Not long after that, she told her colleagues—including Pelegas Transel—of what she had seen, and she begged them, pled with them to cease from their work and dismantle the Vortex. But Pelegas was the only one who would give ear to her warnings.”
“And only half-heartedly, at first,” Merriana added. “He retained some apprehension about it. I sympathized with him; I really did. His passion was science realized, and this was beyond anything that he or others had ever fathomed as a reality. What you take for granted in your time was nothing more than fantasy and speculation in ours.”
“And nothing you said would dissuade them? Not even after what they had seen happen to you?”
The young face looked back at the Monitor with a sly smile. “Quite the lot we scientific types are, yes?” she answered. “Almost as bad as politicians in our stubbornness. But at least scientists are a bit better about abstaining from hypocrisy.”
The Monitor scowled at her as she resumed her forward direction. “I went to the leaders of our day, explained what had happened to me and what I had seen. Unfortunately, most of my colleagues caught wind of my plan and got to them first, undermining my attempts. And for them, I am sad to say, it worked.”
“They wouldn’t let her near the Vortex after that,” the Librarian said. “Feared she might attempt sabotage. Tried having you placed under arrest as well, didn’t they?”
“They did try that, but as it was I had committed no crime, and was showing no signs of actual insanity, so they couldn’t have me imprisoned or hospitalized,” she replied, then added with a chuckle, “but oh how they watched me for several days in hopes that I might act rashly and end up in custody!”
“So what did you do after that?” the Monitor inquired.
“Quit, didn’t you?” the Paladin asked. “That’s what our record of your life says.”
“Not before scavenging several items from our laboratory and going out on a little excavation of my own,” she answered. “My exposure to the Vortex opened my eyes to many things, including secrets on our own home planet, things that much of our populace remained highly ignorant about.”
“Such as?”
The Keeper flashed another smile at the inquisitive man. “Perhaps it’s far better that I show you firsthand,” she answered.

A face no longer shrouded in blackness stared back at them.

Two eyes dotted with inky pools for pupils peered at them, housed within the rounded face of a Gallifreyan female that barely passed as that of an adult.  A weave of thick, black hair that glinted in the surrounding light  spilled over her shoulders as the hood fell away.  The Monitor held his breath for a moment, peering at the stranger with a stunned expression, as the revelation of her visage surpassed his expectation in appearance.  He couldn’t help but feel somewhat captivated by her unexpected beauty, and found it difficult at first to take his eyes away from her.

“We’ve kept your memory alive for so long, Merriana,” the Librarian began, taking a step toward her.  The Paladin lowered her rifle as a relieved smile spread across her face.  “Preserved it from generation to generation on Gallifrey.  We, the Coven of the Keeper, remember you for who you really are.”

The Monitor blinked, regaining his senses.  She had been staring back at him with a demure, almost bashful smile, causing him to forget for a moment the entire predicament.  “You mean this woman—this child—is the Keeper?” he asked in disbelief. 

“I must admit, it’s not the name I chose for myself, but I am the one known by that designation, yes,” she replied, nodding.  

“Impossible!” the Monitor snorted.  “Even granting the possibility that the Keeper does exist—which I do not yet grant, mind you!—you, my child, look nothing like her depictions!  The Keeper is a monster!  A hag found in stories and fables told to our children in order to preserve integrity in their daily lives!  For someone like you to—”

“Heart of gold, in goodness be bold,”

“—be compared with such a myth—”

“Hold fast to the right and the true,”

“—is… I’m sorry?”

“Lest your soul be sold, and a tattle be told, and the Keeper one night comes for you,” Merriana finished.  “That’s the way the rhyme goes, yes?”

The Monitor furrowed his brow.  “Of course!” he exclaimed.  “Nearly every Gallifreyan child hears it in their earliest years!  Why wouldn’t you know it?”

“My lord,” the Paladin offered, “may I remind you that she is Time-Locked?”

“And in the Void as well?” the Librarian added.  “Merriana is the Keeper, my lord Monitor.  And as you can plainly see, she is not a myth, but lives and breathes as we do.”

“I don’t know if I would say that,” Merriana interrupted.  “After all, I have had to make lifestyle changes, as there are limitations to my existence in this place.”

“And speaking of that, exactly how and why are you in the Void like this, my child?” the Monitor inquired.  

“I was banished here, sir.”

“Banished?  For what reason?”

“Because I tried to undo what I had done,” she replied, her voice barely above a whisper.  “I had done something horrible, something terrible upon Gallifrey.  And when I tried to undo what I had done, others prevented me from my attempt to make penance for my transgression.”

“Child,” the Monitor said, moving beside her, “you can’t be more than a year into adulthood.  Surely there is nothing you’ve done that cannot be fixed.  I can’t imagine any Gallifreyan authority taking such a drastic action as exile into the Void for a single individual such as yourself!  What evil could you have done that earned you this terrible sentence?”

“She changed the course of the planet’s development, my lord,” the Paladin remarked.  “So villainous and repulsive did they find her that she was removed from the pages of Gallifrey’s history.  Search for her records high and low on our planet, and you’ll find no trace of her existence, save for the Coven.”

“Indeed,” the Librarian agreed.  “Our founder, Pelegas Transel, was there the day sweet Merriana was banished.  He recorded everything that happened that day, hid it away even after the authorities gathered together after the exile and ordered that none should ever talk or write of this matter ever again under penalty of sharing the same fate.  He passed it on to his disciples, who in turn copied the things recorded and spread them among our people, thus giving birth to the Coven of the Keeper.  He preserved the truth even when those who did away with it invented the distorted fables and rhymes told even today that make our beloved Keeper into some kind of monster, which she plainly is not.”

The Monitor circled his traveling companions, exchanging looks with them and Merriana as he answered.  “Forgive my skepticism, madam,” he began, “but while I’ve seen great good and great evil manifested at the level of the individual, I find it hard to believe that you pose any sort of threat level worth the sentence of exile.  And as for the two of you, for you to follow the words of Pelegas Transel is even more incredulous!  Pelegas Transel was one of the first to go mad upon gazing into the Time Vortex!”

“Not true, my lord,” the Paladin answered in a timid voice. 

“What do you mean?”

“Pelegas Transel did not go mad when he looked into the Time Vortex, my lord.”

“Ah, Pelegas,” Merriana sighed.  “A good friend, he was.  Always lent an ear when I needed to talk and the rest of the planet thought I’d lost my mind.”

“Are you both daft!?” the Monitor scowled, ignoring the stranger’s comment.  “It’s as plain a truth as can be found in the annals of the Citadel! Pelegas Transel was among those responsible for the initial construction of the Vortex, and went mad after gazing into it unsupervised! This is taught to every child in the introduction to Gallifreyan history!”

“Pelegas was as sane and level-headed a fellow as ever there was,” Merriana announced.  “If the three of you will accompany me, I can explain everything to you along the way.”

“Nonsense!” the Monitor bellowed.  “I want an explanation now!  No more talk of fantastic conspiracies about our history; this is not why I came!  Now tell me, my child: how is it that you claim to know so much about one of our earliest historical figures and speak of him as if he were your peer when you obviously have no means to travel about where you wish?”

“I claim to know, sir, because I was there,” Merriana replied, her voice carrying a hardened edge. “And I speak in such a way because I take responsibility for the filching of his good name, as he came to my defense when I renounced what I had done with regard to the Time Vortex.”

“What do you mean by what you had done!?  You telling me that you had a hand in the construction of the Vortex, child?”

The raven-haired woman glared at the Time Lord. “First of all,” she began, her voice now raised and without fatigue, “I am not a child, Monitor.  Or should I call you by your proper name, Vallas Risidor, son of Telos?”

The Monitor’s face changed from anger to shock.  “How could you—?”

“Oh yes, Vallas.  I’ve watched you from the time of your youth.  I know you are on your third regeneration, and have been secretly hoping that you will be given political favors from those in power once Gallifrey is restored.  I know you were married twice, have a son and a daughter from your second marriage, and that you’re considering a third marriage with Time Lady Bethine.”

Merriana glanced at her two disciples, who looked on with a mix of admiration and surprise.  “Shall I continue with other, more sordid details of your life?  Perhaps say something about the failed negotiations with the Sontarans during the Andromeda dispute?  Would you like to share with your colleagues here exactly whose fault it was that those negotiations failed?”

“No!” the Monitor exclaimed, “No!  That’s—that’s enough!  Please!  I’m sorry… Forgive me my insolence!” he looked at the Librarian and the Paladin, looked away again upon seeing  their inquisitive expressions.  “You’ve said enough, Merriana.  I will challenge you no more on this.”

The young Gallifreyan woman’s face relaxed.  “Thank you,” she answered in a low tone.  “I take no pleasure in arguments, Monitor.  I did that many a millennium before you were born.  Now, as I said, please follow me, and I will be happy to explain more.”

The Keeper turned toward the direction from which she had initially come.  “And as for your other question about my having a hand in the construction of the Time Vortex, Monitor, that too is not quite correct.”

“How so?” the Monitor murmured.

“Because I am the reason for the existence of the Time Vortex.”   


Greetings, Bearers!

Before I begin, I just wanted to give a shout out to those of you who took advantage of the free offer of Alternate Endings.  I hope you enjoy what you read, and hope to hear from you soon about it!  Let me know what you think!

And now, for the next part of my fanfic.  Enjoy!

See you in the Vein!

J. Dean

From the pillars, from the ceiling, from the floor, from the darkness beyond, from everywhere and yet from nowhere they came: screams.  Screams of mourning, of fright, of joy and delight. Of lust and hate.  Of desperation and madness. Screams of infants and of elderly. Of men and women.  Of voices both familiar and alien.  They rolled through the vast expanse of the chamber and crashed upon the Gallifreyan trio, drowning them in a cacophonous roar, awakened from the slumber of a monstrous nightmare.

The three dropped to their knees, clapping their hands against their ears in a futile effort to prevent the horrifying cries from piercing their minds.  Searing pain burned within their heads, filling their vision with dizzying stars. The Paladin’s rifle clattered against the currents of blue flowing through the solid floor; she went to reach for it, but the disembodied wailing chorus prevented her from retracting her hand from her ear for more than a sliver of a moment.

Then, as suddenly it had started, it ceased.

The Librarian was the first to release his ears.  He rose, blinking away the scattering pinpoints of imaginary light that occluded areas of his vision.  “What was that?” he gasped.

“You tell me, old man,” the Monitor grunted, shaking his head as if waking from a deep sleep.  He buried his face behind his fingers, groaning.  “Aren’t you the one who arranged this excursion to meet your imaginary Keeper?”

“Like hearing the echoes of the damned,” the Paladin murmured, retrieving her weapon.  She began to look about. “I’ve no desire to hear that ever again, Librarian.”

“Nor I, child.”

“Count that for all three of us,” the Monitor added.  “My headache has increased a hundredfold.”

“My lord!” The Paladin hissed, raising her weapon.

The Librarian gave the female Gallifreyan an unsure look, then followed her gaze, his face shifting from perplexed to amazed.  The Monitor lowered his hands from his aching forehead, turning to look upon whatever had gained the attention of the soldier and the elder Time Lord.

A form in the darkness.

Distant, shrouded in some sort of robe, it walked toward them—no, not walking; it’s movement suggested floating, as if it had no feet.  Beyond the general shape of a hooded head and robed shoulders, no other features could be made out, and even as it slowed, reducing its distance to little more than half a dozen steps away from the Gallifreyans and their TARDIS, they could discern no other details.

The Paladin glanced back at the other two, making sure they remained behind her.  “Identify yourself!” she ordered, keeping the rifle trained upon the newcomer.

The mysterious figure did not move.  It’s face—if indeed it had one—remained obscured in a thick mask of unnatural blackness.

“I repeat, identify yourself!” The Paladin snapped.

“Please,” the Librarian began, taking a step forward.  The Paladin sidestepped in his direction, careful to prevent him from advancing beyond her.  “Please, we seek the Keeper!” he pleaded.  “Are you the Keeper?”

No response.

“We demand your identity, alien!” the Monitor announced, his quantum screwdriver in hand.  “We do not wish to employ hostile methods, but we will defend ourselves if the situation requires it.”

The hooded being held its ground without words.

“We beg you for assistance, friend,” the Librarian pleaded.  “We have come a great distance to seek the Keeper.  We’re Gallifreyans, like she. Please… if you are she, or if you know her whereabouts, we beg you for assistance in locating her.”

At the Librarian’s mention of their planet of origin, the figure’s head moved—slightly.  After another moment of silence, a voice came from within the concealing blackness of the hood: warm, low, feminine, somewhat fatigued.

“Gallifreyans?” she asked.

“Yes! Yes, that’s right!” the Librarian answered with excitement.

“From Gallifrey?  In the constellation of Kasterborous?”

“Yes! From home!”

“Home,” the voice moaned.  The hooded head turned downward, the shoulders relaxing.  “I’ve not heard that word spoken to me in the span of a million lifetimes.”

The Monitor stepped beside the Paladin, holding his screwdriver parallel to the aimed rifle.  “Who are you?” he demanded.  “Our sentry ordered your identification, yet you have not yet provided it!”

The head raised again. “Who am I?” it—she—asked, then added with a laugh.  “It’s been so long since I’ve uttered my own name, I don’t even know that I know it anymore.”

The form began to move to the right of the guarded trio, passing behind a shimmering column for a brief moment.  “I did know it at one time,” she continued, “along with knowing everything else.  I could tell you everything about myself: about where I lived as a child, where I received my education, what my parents and siblings were like, what meals I enjoyed on warm nights when the moons of Gallifrey paraded across the black theater of stars like actors in a play taking center stage.  And now…”

The figure paused, facing the travelers.  “Now I know everything.  I know the past.  I know the future.  I know reality and surreality in this and a million other dimensions conceived of by few and seen by fewer still.  I’ve seen the rise and fall of civilizations great and small on worlds in this universe and in others, about which nothing will ever be known by the vast populace of the worlds with which you’re acquainted.  I’ve followed the lives of the famous, the infamous, the mundane and the unknown, from an innumerable multitude of aliens, some of whom I doubt you’ll ever know about.  I’ve seen secrets made, secrets kept, secrets broken.  I know things about this universe hidden to the most intelligent and inquisitive minds.  And all this I learned in the fraction of a moment.

“But my name… my name has been lost to me.  In this place—in the Void—time is a meaningless word.  A hundred millennia may have come and gone on Gallifrey; perhaps it already has—”

“Far more than that,” the Librarian interrupted, “if you’ll pardon my interruption.”

The hooded figure turned in the direction of the hairless, aged man.  “Indeed!” she replied, a sudden hint of age-tinged fatigue filling her words.  “And yet, though I grasp your clarification with my intellect and believe it, I still feel as if I have just arrived in this place, that I am a newcomer to this massive, lifeless infinity.”

The robed newcomer raised an arm and exposed an upward-pointed finger.  “Perhaps this calls for a rethinking of the concept of eternity, yes?” she asked. “For so long, sentient societies of every sort have had a concept of eternity as a stretch of boundless, unmeasurable time.  But I posit that eternity in fact is a complete absence of time; a reality without it, much like a vacuum is devoid of air.”

The hand dropped.  “What do you think?” she asked.

The trio of visible faces exchanged glances with each other.  The Librarian took a second look at the Monitor, waving off the furious visage of the younger Gallifreyan.  “I think,” he began, “that you need to become reacquainted with yourself, Merriana.”

The robed figure jerked, flinching as if dodging something thrown at her head, then resumed her upright stance.  The hands reached for the hood and pulled it away.

“Merriana…” she whispered.  “I am Merriana.”

Greetings, Bearers!

As part of this week’s “Read an Ebook” week promotion from Smashwords, I’m offering my short story collection Alternate Endings for free from March 2nd-March 8th.  Take advantage of this opportunity and pick up a copy for yourself if you haven’t done so already!  Read it, and let me know what you think of it!

See you in the Vein!

J. Dean

Greetings, Bearers!

Here’s part IV of the fan fic.  Enjoy!  Let me know what you think!

See you in the Vein!

J. Dean

The Paladin gasped.

The Librarian cried in glee.

The Monitor swore a disbelieving oath in the name of Kasterborous.

They had landed in a vast chamber, upon a floor connected to a tall ceiling by an infinite labyrinth of columns, all of which blazed with a soft, blue light that rippled and swirled, as if fashioned from phosphorescent water.   The Monitor raised her rifle, turning from left to right, her eyes watching for any disruption in the azure architecture indicating movement.  The Monitor and the Librarian maintained their positions behind her, scanning the darkness beyond for signs of life, although the Monitor redirected his scowl-filled vision toward the other two on occasion.

“Safe for the moment, are we?” the Librarian whispered.

“Looks that way,” she replied.  “But I request that we stay together, regardless of what is to happen.”

“An impressive place, I must admit,” the Monitor remarked.  “So what is it about this place that can be of use to us?”

“Not ‘what,’ my lord.  Who.  If you’ll hold your position for a moment…”

The Librarian took a few steps away from the others and faced an endless corridor of black flanked upon either side by endless rows of shimmering, rippling sapphire.  He brought his hands against his mouth, cupping them as his body rose in a deep inhale.

“We seek the Keeper!” he cried.

His voice fell into the deep, without echo.

“What!?” the Monitor hissed.  “For whom did you call!?”

A worried look filled the Paladin’s face as she glanced at the Monitor, then back at the hairless head protruding from the red robe.  “My lord—” the Librarian began.

“Have you lost your mind, fool!?” The dark-haired Gallifreyan male scowled.

“No, my lord.  Please, listen to me!”

A shaking fist protruded from the Monitor’s sleeve. “You dare to drag me out to this place in search of a bedtime fable!? Is this your idea of a prank!?”

“My lord!” The Paladin exclaimed, “This is no prank! The Keeper—”

“The Keeper is a myth!” The Monitor thundered, marching toward the sphere.”An invention of mothers and fathers from a million past generations to ensure good moral behavior from their children!  Nothing more than a rhyme before sleep in order to put nightmares into the minds of boys and girls entertaining the notions of morning mischief!”

The Librarian threw up his hands.  “No, my lord!” he shouted.  “Hear me out!”

The Monitor whirled around, narrowing his eyes as he glared at the other fellow. “Expose your wrist, Librarian!”

“The Keeper is real, my lord!” the Paladin protested.

“You stay out of this, soldier! Mind the area!”

The young woman grit her teeth, refraining from unleashing her tongue.  She let out an impatient growl before returning to surveying the area.

“Now, Librarian, on my personal authority, I order you to expose your wrist!”

The older man looked down.  “I know what you’re looking for,” he said patiently,  “but it changes nothing, my lord.  The Keeper is real.”

“Then consider this a mere satisfaction of my curiosity.  Now expose your wrist!”

The right wrist emerged from the crimson sleeve.  The Monitor retrieved his screwdriver, holding it just above the skin below the Librarian’s palm.  At first, the flesh showed nothing under the golden halo of light beamed upon it.  But a second sweep revealed something else: an image of two hands crossing at the palms, enclosed within the borders of a triangle.  Above the two hands hovered a single eye, open and malevolent.

“I don’t believe it,” the Monitor hissed, pushing away the Librarian’s hand.  He turned toward the Paladin.  “And I suppose you have the same stamp upon your wrist as well?”

“She does, my lord.  We are both members.”

The Monitor threw up his hands and expelled a frustrated breath.  “How many more in the Gallifreyan governmental system were members of the Coven of the Keeper?” he asked.

“Now come, my lord,” the Librarian replied, shaking his head.  “You know we cannot divulge either members or numbers of our society.”

“I believe the proper term for you and your members is cult,” the Monitor snapped.  “And you have the audacity to have inserted yourself in such a prominent position as a trusted advisor to the Time Lords, knowing of their disdain for membership in this particular organization?”

“The truth is the truth, dear Monitor.  I cannot deny what is true.”

“You have staked your devotion upon a myth—both of you!”

“How do you explain this place, my lord?” The Paladin asked.

“I explain this place as an odd anomaly which you discovered through some freak entrance into the Void at some earlier time and have somehow deluded yourselves into believing that this place holds your fictional heroine!”

The Monitor laid his hand upon the spherical craft’s metal hull, leaning against it in fatigue.  “I thought you were all extinct by now,” he muttered.  “The last known open session of the Coven occurred just before the Time War commenced.  No trace of your fellow… believers… was seen after that.”

“We learned to be a bit more subtle,” the Paladin replied, cracking half a smile at the tired Time Lord.  “Sorry to disappoint you on that point—no offense intended, my lord.”

“When the authorities of your own world deem you to be an extreme group to be avoided, you tend to learn how to operate covertly as a matter of necessity,” the Librarian added.  “And yet, here we are with you, my lord, as the instrument of your assistance.”

“Some assistance you are.  You called and nobody ans—”

His retort ceased as the screams filled his ears.

Greetings, Bearers!
Part three for you.  A little shorter than the others, but part four will be a bit more for you to read.  Enjoy!


“Touch down,” the Paladin murmured, adjusting a large, golden dial.  The central column’s hum faded into silence.

The Librarian turned to the Monitor.  “Did you reactivate the Time Lock, my lord?”

“Doing so as you speak,” the younger man answered gruffly.  The cylindrical object he had earlier extracted was now protruding from a port mounted into the exterior wall.  The Monitor’s fingers played with small controls on the cylinder’s posterior while he watched a small display.  “I hope for all our sakes that nothing happens to my quantum screwdriver,” he announced, “otherwise we’ll be encased in here for the remainder of whatever time remains in the universe.”

“Perhaps even longer,” the Librarian added with a chuckle.

“Levity is a poor attempt to quell my ire, old man,” the Monitor replied, withdrawing his screwdriver.  “And now that the Paladin has informed us of our successful landing, you can ease my ill temper by explaining to me where we are and what we are doing.”

“Yes, my lord, a moment please.  Atmosphere, Paladin?”

“Oxygen-prevalent, little difference between this place and standard Gallifreyan atmosphere.  No perceived hazards.”

“Very good.  I trust that you’ll be arming yourself, my child?”

She walked to the locker and removed a silver rifle, pausing to pose with it as she smiled at the hairless, red-robed Gallifreyan.  “Wouldn’t have it any other way,” she answered.  “For your own safety, I’ll ask you two to stay behind me as we exit the TARDIS.”

“I’m not as defenseless as you may perceive, Paladin,” the Monitor replied, holding up his screwdriver.

The woman bit her lip and shut her eyes, as if biting back an angry retort. “I’ll keep that in mind, my lord, and I’ll appreciate your help should the situation require it,” she said after a silent moment.  “But as I am specifically trained for combat, unlike either of you, and since I retain the rank of Chief Protectorate for the Librarian, I take primary responsibility for the safety of what appears to be the last four Gallifreyans in existence.  Therefore, I would politely ask you, my lord, to permit me to carry out my duties without hindrance.”

The Monitor gave the Paladin a suspicious glare, then turned to his male companion, who in turn waved a hand at him.  “Let her do her job, my lord,” the Librarian murmured.  The Monitor blew an impatient blast of air through his nostrils, then made an impatient, dismissing gesture at the warrior, following behind her as she stepped through the opening doors.

Greetings, Bearers

Here’s the second part.  A little side note for you who have read the first: the story might need a few rough edges smoothed out, so if you spot any typos, feel free to let me know.  I’m trying to edit it myself as I go along, but if you’re an author yourself, you know how that goes…. :D

Anyway, enjoy!  Part III will come out later this week!

J. Dean


“I have a visual, Librarian!”

The Paladin manipulated a series of controls, projecting what she saw upon the screen opposite her and drawing the attention of the other two to the flickering image.  The Monitor frowned at the picture, noting the faint outline of something resembling no ship with which he had familiarity.  The overall form was that of a large, rectangular object, smooth on all sides save for the bottom, which possessed a jagged, uneven edge.  Black, triangular panels spaced at regular intervals ran along the visible faces, covering almost all of the elongated exterior sides.

“I don’t recognize it,” he commented.

“We didn’t expect you to, my lord,” the Librarian answered, stepping away from the console.  “Standby for enhanced imaging, Paladin.”

The Monitor moved towards the overhead screen squinting as he examined the object: tall and relatively thin, without any evidence of spacecraft design.  “I don’t understand,” he murmured.  “This looks like no ship I’ve ever seen before.”

The Librarian paused from his rhythmic typing upon a series of multicolored studs on the far wall. “That’s because it’s not a ship, my lord,” he answered.

“Not a ship!? But how…?”

“Soon, my lord.  Enhance, Paladin.”

Upon the activation of a switch by the tall female, the image blinked, becoming a featureless green shadow of itself.  But something else appeared around the image.  “That circle…” the Monitor began, his finger tracing the closed arc that surrounded the object.  “That’s a Time Lock!”

“It is, my lord,” the Paladin replied, glancing up at him, then toward the Librarian with worried eyes.  The bald fellow waved her off.  “It’s alright, child,” the eldest being assured her.

What’s alright!?” The Monitor demanded.  “I want answers from you two, and I demand those answers right now!  What is that thing out there!?  And why is it encapsulated in a Time Lock!?”

“That thing,” answered the Librarian, “holds the answer to the problem which I and the Paladin overheard you posit to yourself after your final transmission to the Time Lords.  And as it requires the authorization of a Time Lord as high ranking as yourself, dear Monitor, to disengage a Time Lock, it was necessary for us to bring you to this place.”

The black eyes of the Monitor blazed with anger.  “You brought me out here to disengage a Time Lock encasing something I know nothing about!? And you—” the Monitor growled, glaring at the armor-clad female “you did not consider breaking this lock yourself!?”

“I could have, yes,” the Paladin replied softly.  “But I insisted to the Librarian that it be performed in accordance with our law.  Regardless of what has become of our beloved world, I demand that we still operate in a moral and legal fashion.  Yes, my lord, we could have undertaken this trek without you.  But as we are doing this for the sake of what is just and right, it seemed quite a hypocritical thing to perform evil in the name of good.  And I would not stand for that.”

The Monitor’s face softened—slightly.

“And,” the Librarian added, standing by his female accomplice, “isn’t that why we are here to begin with?  To undo the work of one of our own who has taken it upon himself to defy the very laws we have established as Gallifreyans?  To repair the damage he has done and retrieve our world, bringing it back into its proper physical place in the universe?”

With those words, the Monitor released a tense breath of air.  He glanced at the screen again, studying the bubbled object a second time.  “And I have your word that all will be explained to me should I disengage this lock.  No secrets, lies, or deceit?”

“You have our lives as much as you have our word, my lord,” the Librarian responded.  He pointed toward a black door measuring slightly more than a meter long on the wall near the craft’s entrance.  “The Paladin’s rifle is stored in there,” he continued.  “You may shoot me yourself if I do not disclose everything to you when we disengage the Lock.”

At this statement, the Paladin let out an alarmed gasp.  The Librarian held his ground, feeling her eyes lock upon him.  He responded with a subtle shake of his head, still watching the Monitor’s examining glare.  “Is that equitable for you, my lord?”

The dark-haired fellow reached into his robe, retrieving a small, cylindrical object composed of a deep, crimson metal.  “If it comes to that, my friend,” he answered in a low voice, “I will not need the Paladin’s weapon to expedite your departure.


Greetings, Bearers!

Here’s the next part of my little “teaser,” which I think I’m going to release section by section.  When it’s all finished, I’ll put the entire work into a PDF form, suitable for downloading.  Let me know what you think of it as it comes along!

And for my normal fans, don’t worry: I’m still working on the Vein, the short stories, and all of the other crazy ideas running around in my head :D  

Enjoy and see you in the Vein… or maybe in the Time Vortex as well!

J. Dean


It shattered the Void.

In any other place, it might have gone unnoticed.  Amongst the stars, it would have registered as nothing more than another member of a bright cluster, winking into existence.  In the atmosphere of a planet, it would have cut through and blazed like a meteorite in its final moments of being.  Upon the surface of a thousand advanced worlds, it would have blended in with the finest and greatest of the technological achievements paraded in alien streets and squares.

But not here, not in a place marked only by infinite darkness, eternal nothingness that expanded in every direction, engulfing empty space in a smothering black not unlike the final thoughts of a child’s night terrors.  Here, it stood out in stark contrast to the nothing surrounding it, heralded by a pulsing, concentric ripple of blue rings that rippled from its point of entrance like the waves of a pond betraying a stone piercing its liquid surface.

As its shape suggested a metallic, spherical perfection unmarred by seam or portal, its artificiality was obvious to even the most primitive eye, and would not be in any way mistaken for a naturally formed celestial body.  Nor could its movement convey incidental entry into the Void; once it had cut into the black, it began to move in an intended direction, although attempting to give a designated name for its course would have proven to be meaningless, as no fixed points of reference existed in this place.  For all any onlooker would have guess, the pilots of the vessel had simply picked a trajectory inspired by nothing but arbitrary conjecture.

Within the vessel’s enormous central chamber—the size of which defied conventional laws of mathematics recognized by most races—stood three figures, their attention focused upon a cylindrical array of levers, buttons, and monitors which encircled a pulsing array of crystalline formations protruding from either end of a wide, vertical transparent tube.  One of the figures, a hairless male humanoid dressed in an elegant, scarlet robe embroidered with gold seams and cuffs, fidgeted with a row of switches, operating them as if attempting to play some alien musical instrument.

“Anything yet?” he asked.

To his right, a tall female donning a suit composed of dull grey segments form-fitted to her body glanced at a small, circular screen.  She frowned, then looked at him, her blond hair sliding off her shoulder.  “Nothing so far, Librarian.”

“Continue sending the pulse at regular intervals until detection is established.”

“Yes, Librarian.”

The third figure, another male with hints of wrinkles in his chiseled face and wearing a black robe not unlike that of his male companion in fashion (with the notable exception of the stiff, semicircular piece that rose behind his head like the upper half of a rising black sun) hovered over the Librarian’s shoulder, his coal pupils flickering from monitors to controls in rapid, repetitive movement.  “I don’t appreciate being kept in the dark about this,” he murmured.

“Soon, my lord,” the Librarian replied, turning to the younger being and flashing a hopeful smile.  “Soon we shall have our desired appointment.”

The dark-robed figure gave the female a stern glare.  “And you know the nature of our appointment, Paladin?” he asked.

“I—I do, my lord,” she stammered, averting his gaze.

“And you understand that I could order you to inform me of the specifics of this… appointment, with severe consequences to follow if you refused?”

She held her gaze to the central monitor, reading nothing but a singular blip—their vessel—at the center of an otherwise dark screen.  “I understand clearly, my lord,” she answered.  “And I would respectfully but firmly deny your request until given permission by the Librarian to do so.”

“Monitor,” the Librarian began, “I will reveal all to you in time.  You have my word.”

“Do I?” the Monitor boomed, pacing around the central control column.  He looked upon the other two with a furious scowl as he continued. “You overhear my final transmission to the Time Lords, including my own personal utterance which was not privy to your ears.  Then you step in and declare that you know of a potential way to make real the solution I whispered to what I thought was an audience of one—myself!  And yet here you are, informing me, who outrank the both of you combined—Don’t you dare give me that look, Librarian!  Your age and wisdom do not replace the political authority bequeathed upon me!—you both inform me that I cannot know the details of this solution before they come to pass!”

With fury, he shook his fist at the monitor just above his head, an octagonal screen registering only a blue point of light at its center, the same picture seen by the Paladin.  “As if flying through the Void using questionable means wasn’t foolhardy enough,” he continued while pressing massaging fingers into his temples.  “I’ve had a headache for the past six days,” he muttered.  “A miracle my hearts have not quit on me.”

“Shall I retrieve something medicinal for you?” the Librarian suggested.

The not-quite-older man gave his companion a quizzical look.  “Such as?”

“I’ve quite an assortment of painkillers that would work.  Perhaps a—”

“Librarian!” The Paladin announced, “Contact!”

“Oh! Pardon me, my lord! I must see this…”

The hairless fellow maneuvered to the female’s side, following her intent gaze.  There it was: a hazy, yellow blip somewhere ahead, not quite possessing the strength of brightness displayed by the centered blip of the ship itself. “Readings?” he asked.

“Difficult to establish anything more than general size.  Measures seventy meters in height and nearly four times that in length.  But all other scans register nothing conclusive.”

“That has to be it,” the Librarian announced, pounding his fist against the console.  “Intercept course.”

The Monitor stood behind them, staring at the targeted blip.  “Look,” he began, “I confess to having very little skill in navigation or exploration, but even I realize that an inconclusive scan is just that.  How do you know for a fact that that’s your intended destination?”

“I know, my lord.  I know.”

“But other things have made their way into the Void! Daleks! Cybermen! For all you know, this could be one of their vessels!”

“A possibility, my old friend,” the Librarian nodded, patting the Monitor’s shoulder as he returned to his original station on the other side.  “But I think that unlikely, and when we come closer you’ll see why.”

The Monitor scowled at him.  “And if you thought wrong?”

A thin smile filled the Librarian’s face.  “Then we won’t live long to regret it, will we.”

Greetings, Bearers!

First, a shout out to the recent converts to the Vein series, who have obtained my works!  A big thank-you to all of you fans, both new and old! I hope you enjoy what you’ve been reading so far, and look forward to hearing from you!  Enjoy the stories and spread the word!

And now… for something a little different.  In-between the time spent writing the Vein novels and Surrealities short stories and Hutch Sheridan detective stories and even some non-fiction things, I’ve gotten an idea for a short fan fic piece, one that shouldn’t take very long to write.  This one won’t be put up on Smashwords or Amazon; only put up here later on as a pdf attachment to read for your enjoyment.  It’s in the stages of infancy right now, and in part you can thank my kids for it, as they’ve discovered a scifi show that’s quite iconic and enjoyable–for them and me.

I’m going to go now.  If you’re curious about it, look below my signature… and let your mind wander :D

See you in the Vein!

J. Dean

Heart of gold, in goodness be bold

Hold fast to the right and the true

Lest your soul be sold, and a tattle be told

And the Keeper one night comes for you


-A Gallifreyan bedtime rhyme


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